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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Tyler Riggz Goes Bottoms Up for Jordan Vaughn
Some things are just meant to be.
Due to a last minute scheduling conflict between performers, Tyler Riggz, very unexpectedly, ended up bottoming for the second time on camera in Jett Blakk's upcoming movie, Indian Springs Ranch.
One of Blakk's favorite new tops, Jordan Vaughn, (now with a shaved head!) did the honors. And wow, he looks more gorgeous than ever here. Looking forward to it, Jett!
Ironically, GayGuyintheCorner.com has become a great promo site for not just porn star blogs, but moreover popular blogs by gay guys in the corner of the adult entertainment scene. Though they're not neccessarily porn stars, a lot of readers have become attached to this posse of popular blogs penned by escorts, West Hollywood socialites, or those on the outskirts of the porn industry.
Which of these most visited "Corner" blogs is your fave?
Heidi Mayne introduced her husband to The Jason Sechrest Show last night, who she is hoping to get into the industry as straight male porn talent. The two have already shot together for a couple of web sites and her husband, whom she has been with for nearly a decade now, goes by the name Logan Steel.
Steel explained to the listening audience that he choose the name because of having two steel hips. "I don't expect to be the next big thing," he said, "but I enjoy working with my wife, of course."
The two admitted having a child has made their sex life consist of a lot of "quickies" but that Mayne is good for that, even when it comes to anal sex. They also confessed to a series of role playing, Mayne claiming that, though she's got some serious muscle herself, her husband is forceful enough to hold her arms above her with one hand while they fuck.
Steel said the wildest thing about his wife was her love of toys when they are in the sack together. "Double-vag with toys is fun," says Mayne, "and I like being DP'd by him and a toy."
The two are in an open relationship, though Steel hasn't been with another girl in nearly six months and Mayne is one of the most consistently working newcomers in the biz this year.
Steel said that shooting with his wife has not been intimidating for him, but definitely took some getting used to. "It's definitely less intimate," he expalined.
"Yeah, we save the intimacy for our own bedroom," echoed Mayne.
The two plan on working together a lot for Mayne's official web site launching towards the end of Summer.
Could I love Belladonna any more? Maybe if I were straighter. But regardless, she is true to form in the followup hit, Belladonna's Manhandled 2, from Evil Angel, making sure that she remains thoroughly in control as they lets men do her in every hole as hard as they possibly can. Only she can pull off the short cropped hair and still look absolutely gorgeous with a face and features as feminine as ever.
Her two scenes, naturally, steal the show, though her stamp as a director are all over the rest too. She gets DP'd by John Strong and Mark Wood in the opening scene and then later gets gagged, choked, smacked and raped by Tony T. John and Mark team up to do the same to Rebeca Linares and Tony hits up Ashley Blue for one of her first scenes in quite some time and a great reminder of why she was once queen of the rough housing.
There's also a hot scene with Jada Fire getting banged by Sasha and for all of Evil Angel's female and gay male fans, Kurt Lockwood's scene has just as much ass eating and man hole fucking (with her finger of course) as it does pussy eating and anal plowing from Katja Kassin.
After reading some of the varied reader and listener responses to Jason Ridge's interview recap, I felt like I should step in and make a response of my own.
You see, regardless of whether or not I agree with his opinions, I support Jason Ridge's right to voice them and am elated that he did. I don't think you get anywhere in any industry by burning bridges, but I will say that everything Jason Ridge mentioned is the stuff that people in our inner-industry talk about every day but never write about. He said the things that even I have always been afraid to write. And let's face, it's porn. Why should we be afraid to talk or write about anything? It's not foreign policy. This is not a matter of national security. It's pornography.
It was really refreshing for me to have a sit-down interview with someone who was, though definitely joking about a lot of the things he said, also very impassioned and unafraid to speak out against things and people he feels are corrupt. Porn stars complain to me about the status of the industry every day and then they keep silent and do nothing to change it. Nothing will ever change if every porn star tries to just keep the status quo out of fear that a company may or may not hire them.
I ask you, what would you rather have? Companies who have to do right by their models for fear that the models will speak badly about them and harm the company's reputation? Or models who have to keep their mouths shut when they're treated poorly for fear that they may never work again?
If you've been treated poorly by a company, speak up. If a director demeans you, speak up. If a porn star is behaving like a fool behind the scenes, speak up. If you feel you have a good idea for how the system could be bettered, speak up. If you have opinions and you're passionate about them, speak up. Speaking up is the only way people will listen and it is the only thing that will bring about the changes you seek.
Not everyone will love Jason Ridge. Not everyone will love Michael Lucas or Chi Chi LaRue or Jason Sechrest. That's why I allow comments here where people slam me. You're all entitled to your opinions and I will always fight to support your right to say whatever the hell you want about anyone and that includes me. I can't understand the hypocrisy of some in this business who throw their fists up in the air and scream, "Our rights to free speech!" and then start crying, "How dare you say those things about me?"
Are these companies really for free speech? Or just their right to keep making money off naked boys? I know this business is all about the money, but I do wish there was better treatment for the stars. Some of these bigger companies out there, they have the power to make great change and give back to the performers who have made them what they are and instead they choose to focus on how to keep costs down, how to get the models to work for less. Instead of looking for ways to improve the mainstream's image of pornography in the midst of an administration that is hellbent on destroying us, they choose to focus on how to acquire more titles by the end of the year.
If you insist on spending 8-12 hour work days on something as insipid as naked people and you've decided that's going to be your personal legacy, I ask you to please make sure some of that time is used to better our community. And that doesn't mean getting the cover of a mainstream magazine. I'm talking about the infrastructure of our community. The wheels and the grease that makes the whole thing go. Get in there and get your hands dirty with the machinery.
Finally, to answer one specific readers' response, Kabbalah, by the way, is all about "stirring the shit." It's about making change and it is about being fearless and refusing to keep the status quo.
P.S.: Was so swamped this week. Back to daily "News Desk" updates on Monday. Thanks guys! xo L, J.
I've interviewed Jason Ridge since the very beginning of his career. I've interviewed him in night clubs, on radio shows and on DVD. But I have never experienced an interview with the gay porn star so totally uncensored as Ridge's latest incarnation as producer, appearing alongside his roommate and production manager Rob Romoni to promote his new company, Ridgeline Films, on yesterday's episode of The Jason Sechrest Show. Together, the two of them took on -- and took down! -- everything from controversial topics to major players in both mainstream and porn, in what has got to be one of the most classically candid interviews in our site's history.
Right off the bat I surmised that Ridge was much more comfortable in his own skin and I suggested that maybe this was the first time we were seeing the real him. I explained that from my point of view there have been three incarnations of the star to this point: The first time I interview him he was shy and nervous, barely about to get a word out of his mouth without shaking; As time went by, he used arrogance to hide his insecurities and gave a sense of his ego going into overdrive; And this time, Ridge seemed calm, collected and focused, but not about to take any shit or pretend to be or believe anything other than what he feels is true regardless of the feathers his opinions may or may not ruffle.
Physically, he's also never looked better, somewhere between his lean beginnings and his steroid phase. "I felt a lot of pressure to get bigger because I was told I was too skinny," says Ridge.
JR: You know, Blue Blake only hires muscular guys and I'm fine with that now. He'll just become competition. Basically, it's a free ticket if you steroid up and you have the abs and the muscles, regardless of how tore up your face looks from it, you get a free ride. I won't mention names like Van Damme or anything.
JS: Robert? He has a beautiful face, don't go there.
JR: For Croatia or something.
JS: For a father!
JR: For his girlfriend. Whatever.
JS: No, I'm saying he's a father. For his age, I think he is beautiful.
JR: Yeh, talk about a free ride. Anyway, no, he's a great guy I'm sure, but you know I'm gay and I love being gay and this is my career and peers and that's how I feel about it.
I quickly informed him that when Robert Van Damme appeared on my show, he explained that he has gotten to a point where he knows he loves cock and is greatful to the industry for giving him that outlet to have it while he remains married to a woman he loves.
JR: Oh, okay. I didn't realize that. Well, that's good. I give him credit. Unlike the Zeb Atlas and Mark Dalton performers out there. They don't know they're gay and gay people love to hate themselves so they love to worship these guys.
When asked what turns him on, Ridge said he loves straight porn and jacks off to it all the time.
Besides sharing the same name, Jason and Jason also share a devotion to the study of ancient mysticism that is Kabbalah.
JR: I wish I was more involved like I was before.
JS: I noticed we're both not wearing the string.
JR: Well mine keeps falling off.
JS: Because people hate you.
JR: It's been a six month hiatus since I've had it on.
JS: Wow, me too! I have mixed feelings about it actually because part of me feels like the whole point of the study is to realize that you have everything you need within you, so you don't really need a string. But at the same time, I love the symbolism of ritual. It's a great reminder but that is really all it is.
JR: Plus, everytime I wear it I get asked about the M word. Madonna may have influenced my decisions, but it's a good influence.
I mentioned how I have questioned the Centre's focus on the text of the Zohar when there are so many books that come before it that you never hear mentioned like the Sefer Yetzirah and The Bahir, all of which are essential to true Kabbalistic study. Ridge said he guessed that it is like Scientology where the more you pay, the more you learn. Still, he says he uses The Zohar in times of need and takes volume 14 about health and well-being with him on plane rides to help him through things.
I asked him to define Kabbalah for people who might not understand it.
JR: It's seeking truth. It's seeking to not be selfish, thinking of others before yourself, just trying to make your life better.
I elaborated.
JS: I think it is rooted in a belief system that everyone is a piece of God and that we all have God within us and therefore it inspires you and teaches you how to behave more like God would in situations in your every day life. Or if you don't like the word God, then let's say it inspires you to behave like you feel the President of the United States should. It's about being a leader and recognizing your own power and using it for good by being the best version of yourself that you can be. What the Centre has done is offered up a very dumbed down version of a very complex text to the point that it becomes self-help, which is the smallest fraction of all religion or spirituality really.
JR: I want to believe in something that I know is not going to judge me regardless of Judaism, Christianity, Muslim... religion breeds hate and I don't want to be a part of that. So if I can have spirituality in my life and still fuck guys, why not?
We broached the topic of his new company, Ridgeline Films, and he says that of all the companies, he aspires to be a competition for Hot House. "Except not neccessarily as much films, because now the Internet is where its at so I really intend to capitalize on that too."
Ridge says it has been a lot of work, especially when shooting the first movie, A Rising Star, in Palm Springs. Ridge says he worked 20 hour days and didn't complain because he knew what he was in for. "I would fuck someone and then clean up the set after it was done," he says.
Ridge managed to snag Falcon Studios exclusive Roman Heartfor a scene opposite himself during the brief period of time that Heart's contract from Falcon had expired. "Scandalous!" he laughed. "I knew Roman Heart and we asked him and he said yes. His ass is so voluptuous it was hard to capture my dick going in and out of it because I don't have a Peter North cock. We started shooting the scene at 8:00 at night and didn't finish until 2:00 in the morning. He has since re-signed with Falcon. It is the hottest scene though. I can honestly say that our movie is equal to or above Falcon."
Ridge stars as a mainstream actor in A Rising Star whose staff is trying to get a scoop about his sexuality to sell to the gossip rags to ruin his movie career. Aside from Ridge's scene with Heart, he also peforms a scene and a half (separate blowjob encounter) with Andrew Justice. There is also a threeway with Blu Kennedy, Marcos David and Joe Strong as well as Matt Cole's final scene opposite Joe Strong. "It's Matt Cole's best scene," says Ridge. "His first scene was with me for Hot House and now his last scene is for my company. I really wanted to fuck Blu too and I wanted him to fuck me, but I couldn't put myself in every scene. I know some people would be like, 'This is an all Jason Ridge movie. I'm not going to watch this because I hate him.'"
There are no water sports featured in the movie, but Ridge says it is something he would like to delve into.
The movie is directed and photographed by Dylan Ryan who Ridge says has directed many movies for Jet Set and is an amazing photographer, having shot his gorgeous cover for the Hot House movie, Skuff 3.
Though rumors were circulating during the inception of Ridgeline Films that Ridge was only a part owner in the company alongside businessman and circuit king Jeffrey Sanker, Ridge says that is no longer the case and that he is now full owner of the company. "He encouraged me and helped me out greatly," says Ridge. "He's very special to me and a wonderful friend. I need the company to be mine though. I need full creative control. I'm doing the movies I want to do and I'm doing them the right way and going to treat all the models with respect because Ive been there and I've seen how they can be treated."
Ridge didn't name companies but said there were moments in his career where he felt belittled or unimportant on sets. "I don't like the way I've seen some models treated, not just me," he says. "So for those boys, they can come with me because it's going to be the next best thing and I'm not a quitter. And to anyone who tells me differently, I say fuck off. I will be bigger than your company. Fuck off. If you want to be a part of it and help me and support me, that's fine if you want. If you're scared and you want to create a competition, that's fine if you want too. Or if you want to hate me and try to bring me down, that's fine too. I will make more money than you and I will treat my models with more respect and won't piss in their mouths in urinals and I won't give them a bag of coke and walk away and not take care of them. ...And I won't hire anyone like Doug Jeffries."
The jab at Jeffries comes on the heels of Lex Sabre's appearance earlier in the month where he stated, "Doug Jeffries knows how to reel you in and then stomp on you."
JS: What is wrong with Doug Jeffries? I've been hearing this a lot lately on the show.
JR: You know! He is the meanest, nastiest person. I will never associate myself with him. He will never get to associate himself with me and he doesn't have his own company. So I say, fuck you.
JS: Wow. I'm loving the new Jason Ridge. I used to talk like that.
JR: I'm tried of people saying things about me and lying. Fuck you. I'm gonna do my thing.
JS: Well, what's weird too is that you don't seem angry and you're not saying anything in a mean tone. You just seem very... honest.
JR: I want to be the opposite of Doug Jeffries.
JS: I think everyone wants to be the opposite of Doug Jeffries, Jason.
JR: I'm not going to sleep with all the models in my movies and I'm going to make it to the top without being mean to people like he is. I don't want to be like, "I choose you because you're Latino and Black and you will come fuck me."
JS: Don't hold anything back!
JR: You have to say what you mean. You know how it is. You can be honest and bold and have an opinion or you have be an Entertainment Tonight reporter who sucks up to everyone and goes nowhere in their career. He's not going to do anything for me, Doug Jeffries. No one in this industry would, in fact. No one is going to do anything for you if you don't do it for yourself.
JS: I never thought I would say this, but I'm actually rooting for you right now.
JR: Thank you. That means a lot. You probably thought I'd be gone.
JS: I did! What did you think of working with Michael Lucas?
JR: Regardless of what people think of his personality, I loved working with him. When I go to New York, I think it's a Lucas town and when people come to L.A. it will be a Ridgeline town. San Francisco has COLT and Raging Stallion and all that.
JS: Well, at the moment, I think when people come here, they think of it as a Chi Chi LaRue town. Are you out to change that?
JR: Absolutely. You gotta relax. Friendly competition. We're all in the same business. They are old school people too. It's time for a change. I love Chi Chi too, but she needs to get away from the association with Doug because it's hurting her image and her company.
JS: I'll agree with that.
JR: You can't be that nasty and vicious to people and expect for it not to get talked about and hurt your reputation eventually. He thinks he's the "it" guy, but he's never been. He thinks he is all that and in all actuality he's not. He's just rude and mean. I had times when my ego was that huge and thankfully people set me straight. For me, I had to accept when I wasn't getting the box covers and the magazine covers that I wasn't who I thought I was. And I knew if I ever wanted those things, I would have to go make them happen for myself.
JS: Do you have any regrets in your career?
JR: I wish I hadn't been on the juice during my Hot House movies. I wish I could change some of the performers I've been paired with. Chi Chi loved putting me with gay for pay guys like Tod Parker who has now gained tremendous weight and does background work for Massive Studios. Chi Chi would put me with them because she said she knew I wouldn't complain. And she's right. I never did. And I love working with Chi Chi. No problem there. It's the Doug Jeffries thing in the way.
JS: I don't think Chi Chi really has a grasp on just how much it is in the way and how much it has done damage to their image. Especially inner-industry.
JR: It doesn't matter. We've spent too much time even talking about him. He's a puppet. He follows her around like a puppet and works in her shadow and he's not even his own individual person. Hopefully someday they can separate him from that company. But in the meantime, I have my own thing going on. You're going to exclude me? Fine. I'm going to exclude you. No one owns this business anymore. Not since the Internet sites like Sean and Randy and Corbin have taken over and the big companies are freaking out. That's why I plan on launching the Internet divsion of my company very soon.
For the second hour of the show, Ridge was joined by porn star Rob Romoni, who happens to be Ridge's roommate, production manager and one of his best friends.
Ridge wanted to make sure the subject of FreeHarlowCuadra.com was mentioned though it was hard to be serious about such a dark subject with a comic like Romoni in the room. (I swear to God, Rob Romoni could easily be the next Bruce Vilanch if he wants. I want to get together and have him write all my stand-up material with me.)
JS: What do you think? Do you think Brent did it?
JR: (long pause) Let's say I don't think he sleeps well at night. Jon Roker is a very well known independent filmmaker who just finsihed a documentary on the band Green Day. He's now working on a documentary about the porn industry and he supplied me with the Free Harlow t-shirt I'm wearing in the photos on my blog. He wants to document the story too.
JS: Have you spoken with Harlow directly?
JR: Yes. He gives his regards to everyone.
JS: Everyone but Brent Corrigan, who will be on the show by the way in late August.
JR: In my heart of hearts, it just doesn't add up or make any sense. Brent was a shady character from the moment I met him. With a boyfriend 20 years older than him, lying about his age, falsifying documents, doing bareback movies, getting loaded up with cum, lying about defense funds with no proof of where the money went, using everyone for their money... it's just my opinion, but I can have an opinion and there is something I honestly feel was set up and something is not right. I've spoken with Harlow twice. He thanked me for my support and unfortunately that's all I can give him at this time is that and to spread it around. Something is fishy. Why would someone confess the murder to Brent Corrigan of all people and why would he assist in bringing him down unless he was involved somehow and going to get off scott free?
JS: What can you do?
RR: Send him a basket! Something nice.
JR: We're going to drive to Pennsylvania and document the hell out of all of this and we're going to have some fucking justice.
JS: Okay, wait. I don't know if you're kiddong or not. Are we really going to Pennsylvania?
RR: We're going tonight, actually!
JR: I'm serious.
JS: No, really? I'll go. Let's go!
JR: Cobra owned the right to Brent Corrigan's name. If it wasn't that big of a deal, why would Falcon use the name Fox Ryder instead for their movie The Velvet Mafia -- which didn't do very well, by the way.
JS: Weren't you in that movie, Rob?
RR: I was.
JR: He had a cameo.
JS: Are we really going to PA?
RR: Tonight!
JR: Honestly? I've been asked. I've been asked by some other people who believe he's not guilty. I might go.
RR: We'll google a map and we'll be on our way.
JR: I want to be like Whoopi Goldberg in that movie. The friendship movie.
JS: Boys on the Side.
JR: Yes! I want to walk in and go, "God damn it! I'm here. Let's get you out!"
JS: What should we do?
RR: I think we should bake him something.
JR: I think the real person who murdered Bryan Kocis should come forward.
JS: Yeh, well that's not gonna happen!
JR: And anyone who works with a certain model ever again, shame on them.
JS: Yeah, but innocent until proven guilty. If you're going to say that about Harlow, you have to say the same thing about Brent.
JR: No longer. That's why he retired. Trevor thought he had a free ticket. No longer. Adam asked me to be with him, but said I had to quit porn. Fuck that. Until he pays for my car payments and takes care of me, fuck you, I'm my own person.
JS: Do you think Trevor will come back to the industry now?
JR: Hello! He has no money coming in! I don't know, really, Trevor. Sorry.
JS: What is a normal night at your place like for the two of you?
JR: He cooks for me and we watch The Golden Girls.
RR: And then we knit.
JR: We watch television. We do business on the Internet. We have two dogs.
JS: What kind of business?
JR: We do not escort. I don't do that. ... Anymore.
RR: I'm too busy answering the call.
JS: This is a fantastic interview.
JR: Look, the bottom line is I don't like to follow people --
JS: Really? I like to be on my back.
RR: I like to have people fall asleep while they are inside of me.
JS: Is that what your profile says?
JR: Oh yeah. Gay.com, Adam4Adam, ManHunt... Brad Slater is always on there. He is trash.
JS: He is kinda trashy really.
JR: Even for a quick fuck, he's just trash.
JS: Did you really date him?
JR: No. I didn't even fuck him. I just came inside him.
RR: He wanted children.
JR: Someone gave me the stage name Dump and Go so for any latinos out there, that's my name. I love latin boys.
RR: He does love it. It'll all be in the book.
JS: Called Dump and Go?
RR: Called Crash and Burn.
JR: I'm very responsible. I pull out. Then I cum. ...Then I stick it back in, but ya know.
JS: I love you. That was a very Kathy Griffin/Jason Sechrest moment for you.
JR: I think people who condemn bareacking in this business are ridiculous. No one is even testing the models over here anyway and if they really cared they would. But they know no one would work if they did.
JS: A lot of people think that I advocate barebacking just because I've admitted that I've done it and it's a preference. I don't advocate it, I'm just honest about my choices and my mistakes. I don't think lying about it is going to enhance education, it's only going to propogate misinformation. I do think it is a personal choice though.
JR: Unless you have HIV and you knowingly infect someone.
JS: Yeah, but even then, you can't have the GLBT community claiming that this disease no longer equals death and then have a court of law equate infection to murder. It doesn't work both ways. Either it is death or it isn't.
RR: Wow. Deep conversation.
JS: And when I said it was my preference in an interview years ago, it's merely because I wasn't lying. Whose "preference" is it to wear a condom? Look up the definition of preference. Educate yourself. No one prefers how a condom feels. Do I wear them? Sure. Have I not worn them at times? Absolutely. It doesn't mean I advocate barebacking. It means I'm not a liar.
JR: Who would be a hypocrite to say they don't like it? That's ridiculous. I've done it.
RR: I see a road trip.
JR: Whose right is it to say if it is right or wrong if you're two consenting adults? Soon you'll have people arrested for having inappropriate sex.
JS: Well, that's true. There are a lot of people who want to make it illegal.
JR: Yeah, I met her. She's such a bitch. I love her.
RR: She bought us a nice appetizer at Friday's.
JS: What are you talking about?
JR: Jason, you're pretty cool this time around.
RR: He's on the meds.
JR: No, we have more of an understanding now that we both don't tolerate bullshit anymore and we have the power to change this industry.
RR: Wow, this is how Microsoft started.
JS: Well, I don't know how interested I am in changing it anymore. But I support you all the way. Do you guys ever go out in West Hollywood or do you just stay in and do coke and watch The Golden Girls?
RR: Honestly, we've been so busy working on the company lately.
JS: Rob, have you ever met anyone like Jason Ridge?
RR: I've never met anyone so driven like him.
JS: Ever?! Performer or person?
RR: Well, I haven't met a lot of people really. ... He really is driven though. He means what he says and he gets it done. He's not lying when he says he's doing this 20 hours a day. He would get three hours of sleep and then go back to the set which was a multimillion dollar home in Palm Springs, awesome layouts, beautiful place.
JR: I want to give my regards to Chi Chi about that house. She wanted that house to shoot in but you know, you can't get everything you want unfortunately. But I thank her for all her support.
For the final moments of the show, Ridge, who says he will be 33 this year, showed off his ass, spreading wide for the camera.
JS: I have to admit, I've never been attracted to you until now but you are pretty damned hot these days, Jason. And your butt is perfect right now. I can't believe you're spreading it and everything! Showing off your cock. Which looks bigger than ever. Not so shy anymore.
JR: Look, we can't take ourselves too seriously. It's good to be safe, but that is an individual choice. You can't force someone to wrap it up, so to speak.
Jason Ridge will be a part of JasonCurious.com 4.0's new roster of monthly columnists debuting in August.
Also, members look for a FULL PHOTO GALLERY! from his appearance on The Jason Sechrest Show in our site's Show Galleries next Tuesday!
Trunks 3 is a continuation of a series that Hot House director Steven Scarborough was born to make. No one captures man sex with more gloss and glam than Scarborough these days so when the poolside romps are ripe for beads of sweat and water dripping off the backsides and the front, Scarborough captures each drop to crystal clairty like it's something out of a dream.
The real star of this one is Francesco D'Macho who begins with shoving a dildo up his ass solo before fucking the hell out of his first scene partner Adriano Marquez. It's a hot scene but nothing compared to its bookend romp where he flip flops with Josh Weston. The hardcore anal action is the shortest of the movie, but long enough to get just the perfect feel for both studs wrestling for the right to top each other.
Cole Ryan turns out what might be the hottest performance of his career taking cock from both Trevor Knight and Kevin Armstrong. Ryan has never looked more beautiful or in better shape and his sexual form for this bottom venture is jaw dropping. Knight is even at his all time best here, popping twice in one scene! It is without a doubt the highlight and stand-out scene of the movie, much in part thanks to Ryan.
Trent Atkins may need a harder hitting top than R.C. Ryan to really make the scene shine to its fullest potential, but damned if they aren't both pretty to look at going on. And on the flip side of the coin, the gruffer boys turn out one of the raunchiest scenes with the most chemistry featuring Adriano Marquez getting fucked by Marco Paris who gets fucked by Vinnie D'Angelo.
Another thing I love about Scarborough is that he's a big fan of ass eating. Hardly a butt here gets by without a thorough spreading and tonguing -- and we have to give him mad props for that!
DVD sales are 30% lower this year than they have been in the past decade, but Hot House continues to sell at a rapid fire rate. Why? Marketing schemes? Hotter exclusives? More mainstream promotions? Nope. They're just plain making better porn than the rest these days.
Adam & Eve's follow up sexvid, The Contractor #2, is just as hot as its predecessor!
Carmen Luvana is finally captured in the light she deserves by director Daniel Dakota who lights her perfectly and captures the prowess for which she has become an internationally known porn superstar. And fortunately there's more scenes with her here than usual, all of which are the hottest of the movie!
Her lesbo lickfest with Tyler Faith puts to shame the notion that girl/girl scenes are nothing but boring while her anal romp opposite Mark Davis is not for the faint of heart. Davis still knows how to pound the fuck out of a girl harder than most in this biz. There's also a grand finale with Luvana getting fucked by Tommy Gunn while her face is buried in Audrey Bitoni's puss.
Tia Tanaka has a hot scene with a long dicked man and another scene not to be missed is Ava Rose and Aline swapping parnters with well hung studs Evan Stone and Jan Val Jean. It's a foursome with so much spit, cum and cock swapping you often forget who is in who.
Congrats to Dakota for putting out one of the best titles from Adam & Eve yet this year.
Angel Benton pulled a real Britney Spears and cried live on camera to yours truly when the subject of gay porn star Andy Kirra came up on The Jason Sechrest Show yesterday afternoon. He also announced that he is the new editor-in-chief of Just Us Boys magazine and will also be taking on additional duties such as their online blog.
I opened the show explaining that other guests were unable to attend the show, leaving the viewing audience with two hours of Angel and Jason, a prospect that I admitted was depressing me on the drive over -- until I found a way to make it more exciting for us both.
We agreed that for the first half of the show, I would interview Angel and for the second half of the show, Angel would interview me. No holds barred. All questions go. Everything you've ever wanted to know and say. Seeing as I defined our friendship as being one that is 50/50 between wanting to hug each other or choke each other on any given day, it was bound to be an exciting Q&A. ...At least, to anyone who knows us.
First, Angel had to get some plugs out of the way. His web site, of course, AngelBenton.com is alive and well and he's constantly hosting parties for RentBoy.com, the most recent event being a pool party that he emceed in Ft. Lauderdale. Benton said there was a lot of drama going down behind the scenes at the pool party no paying customer would have known about. "Allegedly, one of the porn stars who was there had date raped one of the escorts that was there. Plus, other little dramas of so and so sleeping with my boyfriend and who is having unsafe sex and sleeping with people with herpes. The party itself was a lot of fun though. When we go on trips 9 times out of 10, I play a good role in the drama and I always feel bad about that, but this time I took great pleasure knowing the shit going on had nothing to do with me."
Angel's big announcement however, was being named editor of Just Us Boys. "We are moving offices from Hollywood to Ft. Lauderdale and one of the main reasons I've been brought on board is I'm going to stay in Los Angeles and be their liason. Today was my first day in the office and I got to piece together my first issue."
When asked if he feels this new job will inhibit his time to pursue his more mainstream ambitions, Angel said, "The jury is still out on that. I had come to a point where I had to prioritize my life and for me, the #1 priority was making a living, making money."
Benton refuses to reveal how old he is, claiming there is nothing wrong with a little mystery. "I think that's what makes me kind of different," he smiled. "I'll talk about getting my anus waxed, but I won't say how old I am."
Then the games began.
I came right out and said: "Angel, some people think there's a lot of ridiculousness going on in your head and it dates back to your posts on Rusty, being envious of his going home with a lot of boys when that is not the kind of attention you have ever sought after, being a virgin by choice. The ridiculousness is, obviously, that you would be envious of a kind of attention you've never wanted to begin with."
Benton called that envy a "root problem" he's had since he was a child. "I wasn't below the poverty line but this close. Poor as you can be and still be middle class so I was always surrounded by people who have more than me."
JS: Right, but although we're not revealing your age, I think it's safe to say that you are very, very much a full grown adult now. Do you think that root problem from your childhood is something its time to move on from?
AB: Well, I definitely don't envy how a lot of those situations with Rusty end up. He gets his feelings hurt and his heart broken. I feel bad for him. He's one of my best friends obviously I never want to see him hurt and I don't envy that ever. It's more that if I walk into a club with Rusty, I am invisible. It wasn't the follow up, it was the initial attention that I don't get.
JS: So instead of finding a different group people other than the RentBoy escorts to be with that maybe wouldn't make you feel so invisible or alienated, you dove head first into hanging out with them more and becoming a part of their careers and lives. Why?
AB: The reason why was because I did not blame them for all the attention they got.
JS: Did you blame yourself?
AB: I don't know if I necessarily blamed myself, but I wondered what was wrong with me. Before, when I was heavy, I thought okay, no one's going to want to be with me. I'm the funny best friend. But now that I've lost all the weight and I'm emaciated and fabulous, obviously its not that so what I thought in my head was reality obviously wasn't. So I wonder why does everyone refuse to see me in a sexual light?
JS: Do you want them to see you in a sexual light?
AB: Of course!
JS: Then why are you still a virgin?
AB: That's something different.
JS: Are you waiting for marriage?
AB: No, I'm not waiting for someone I think I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. I'm not stupid. I see how relationships are. People who think I have those kind of expectations on my first lover are mistaken. I just want someone to understand how important they are going to be to me for the rest of my life. You always remember your first time. It's not like a driver's test where you can fail it and take it over.
JS: No, but you never forget your first driver's test too, Angel. You never forget your first anything. Why are you placing so much importance on this? You're the one placing the importance on it.
AB: Having a driver's test and having someone inside of you or being inside of someone is a little more intimate.
JS: If you're putting intimacy into it, sure.
AB: And that's why a lot of my readers get frustrated with me because they say that hookers and porn stars don't attach emotion to sex so what do you expect? But I think that is painting with a pretty broad brush.
JS: Well, they may choose not to separate emotion and sex in their private lives but because of their careers they certainly have the ability to make that distinction.
AB: But it doesn't mean they are incapable of anything but separating.
JS: No, but it does mean they are definitely able to separate.
AB: Yeh.
JS: Are you able to separate?
AB: (pause) No. No, I don't think so.
JS: So that is why your readers might be frustrated. You're asking yourself constantly in your blog why you feel like an alien and yet you're putting yourself in a situation with people who have a completely different outlook than you do.
AB: Well, I've only been working in adult entertainment for three years now. Before that, I was working at Disneyland in Orange County which had the gayest of the gays, gayer than porn, and it had all the exact same personality types that you find in porn. So I don't think that attitude is relegated to being porn stars.
JS: You can say that until the cows come home, but regardless it's not their job at Disney to differentiate between sex and emotion. That is what an escort does for a living as part of the job. That is not part of the job description at Disney. You have no chance of finding someone who is like you, someone who can't separate, by being around these people.
AB: I'm not asking for someone who can't separate. I would date an escort or porn star and have no problem with them having sex with other people so long as it was only work.
JS: Look, are you trying to tell me you don't feel as though it is any more difficult for you, having placed yourself in the situation you're in and the industry in which you work and the people with whom you surround yourself -- you don't think that makes it more difficult to find the type of person you are looking for? You don't think there are other places you might find people more like you a little more easily?
AB: I don't have an answer for that. In many ways, I'm the most wholesome person you'll find in the XXX industry but I also enjoy a good party. I don't think I would find the love of my life at a church youth group. I'm open for any situation, but I think because of the people I do hang out with and the crowd I run with I've been blessed with -- I don't want to say fame -- but notoriety that has elevated some of my issues and heightened my self awareness. I've been able to find out things about myself that I wouldn't know if I had run with a more wholesome bunch.
JS: Ok, let's fast forward to when you declared your love of escort Rusty and porn star Andy Kirra in your blog. First of all, how do you fall in love with two people at the same time?
AB: I am glad you asked that because now looking back on it, I realize that my feelings for Rusty were not as strong as my feelings for Andy. I was just crushing on Rusty whereas I am definitely in love with Andy.
JS: You were in love with Andy? Or you are in love with Andy?
AB: Oh, I am. I am in love with Andy.
JS: When was the last time you saw each other?
AB: Two or three weekends ago.
JS: So you're still hanging out as friends?
AB: Not really hanging out. He's actively started dating now so I'm not going to lie, that's difficult for me. I want him to be happy. I was ready to move leave town. If I didn't get this job with Just Us Boys I'd be in Vegas right now in a show.
JS: Because of Andy?
AB: That was the main reason. I love him very much and I want him to be happy. That's all I've ever wanted even when we were just friends. The only thing I want is for him to be happy, healthy and successful.
JS: Well, from what I understand, he is happy, healthy and successful.
AB: That's wonderful.
JS: So what's the problem?
AB: What's the problem?
JS: What do you want?
AB: I want him to continue being those things.
JS: And he will, with or without you in town, right?
AB: That's great, but I know that internally, seeing him happy with somebody else --
JS: Ah ha! So it's not just about him and his happiness.
AB: I still want him to be happy, but for me to put myself in a situation where I am torturing myself is not the most healthy thing so I thought if I leave town I could let him be so that he could find the happiness he deserves without having to worry about my feelings. Unfortunately, life threw me a curve ball and I have to stay in Los Angeles.
JS: Why are you no longer in love with Rusty?
AB: I saw a lot of the boys Rusty dates and I saw his type and realized it was more of an infatuation with him. I am over the thing with Rusty. Completely over it.
JS: Why are you in love with Andy?
AB: He's an amazing person. When people talk about him... (chokes up) it is purely and only in sexual terms. He gives good head, he's a hot little bottom, all those things are true. I wouldn't know from experience but I've seen it on film. He's so much more than that and it bothers me people sell him so short because he's incredibly intelligent and very caring and believe it or not very sensitive. He has a wicked sense of humor that is just the sexiest fucking thing ever. And he's a very talented writer and musician.
JS: How many times have you jacked off to his movies?
AB: I've never jacked off to his movies, but I did while watching his solo show on JasonCurious.com. And I've watched his opening scene from Curious.
JS: Have you ever cried during or after masturbating to him?
AB: (long pause) ...No. I've cried over him many times but not while I was masturbating. (laughs)
JS: When did you know you were in love with him?
AB: Watching a Ryan Cabrera video... laying with Andy and instead of wanting to be with Ryan Cabrera, I realized in that moment that I wanted to be with Andy Kirra.
JS: Do you think there's a chance of it working out?
AB: I definitely wish that things would work between us. I don't think there's a chance right now. You never know what could happen in 2, 4, 8, 20 years from now. He has made abundantly clear that he is not interested in seeing me that way. Publicly. He's made it publicly clear.
JS: So it's over?
AB: Nothing ever started to be over with.
JS: Well, there was certainly a one-sided courtship in your own mind. I remember you told me once you felt like you were in competition with Brandon Baker. Why?
AB: Brandon will always love Andy but not in the same way he used to. He is very fulfilled by his boyfriend Fabrice and was very much fulfilled by Kyle Foxxx when they were together. But at the time I felt Brandon could offer Andy so much more than I could. And when I came forward about my feelings for Andy, I made the allusion to the movie Moulin Rouge and -- (cries)
JS: Please don't get upset.
AB: (crying) I made the allusion to Moulin Rouge with me being the penniless writer who falls in love with the courtesan. Here he is, bursting with talent and loves this woman so much. And Brandon, I didn't see him as the Duke, but he could offer him so much more. And I know the way this is coming out is very demeaning to Andy. He makes his own decisions and decides who he wants to be with. But I've watched the movie every day for the past 8 months now and I think that my story is finally changing because now I'm not going to be the penniless writer anymore. I'm going to be a successful writer.
JS: And you think that will make him want you?
AB: You can't make him do anything. He's a force of nature.
JS: Do you think it could possibly change things though?
AB: What is going to change is my own mind set that I now can bring something to the table.
JS: Which would be... what, money?
AB: Not just -- well, yeah. Money's a lot of it.
JS: You think people will want you for money?
AB: No, I think with money I will be a lot more desirable.
JS: Right. You think people will want you with money. That's what you're saying, right?
AB: Okay. Maybe. Maybe that's what I'm saying. I just feel so alone at this point. Emotionally, I have a lot to offer. I can show you good time, mentally and emotionally I have a lot to offer. But I know a lot of parents out there would say I don't have a college degree, working at a mall, that they could do better. I want to be someone you would feel comfortable bringing home to your parents.
JS: Do you feel this is feeding into superficiality? Something you've strived not to give into?
AB: I'm not being hedonistic with my money. It's not like I took this job so I could do crystal meth. I just felt like I wasn't on an even playing field with a lot of people who do give into a lot of those things. And where is the payoff for me? Where is the payoff for sticking to my guns and not giving into temptation and self-indulgence?
JS: Did you do it for a payoff or because it was who you are?
AB: I didn't do it for a payoff. No. But I am a firm believer in cosmic justice.
JS: Do you find yourself attractive?
AB: A lot more now than I did before. (gasps) I need a breath. ... I don't get the kind of attention that Rusty gets when he walks into a room. But I am told that is a reason why a lot of readers love my blog, because I'm the everyman and I am feeling what they would be feeling and that's why they read it.
JS: So for all of the complaining you do in your blog about feeling like an alien and like you can't relate to anyone, you're telling me now that you have a lot of people who say they follow your life because they can relate to you.
AB: Yeh.
JS: Isn't that a contradiction?
AB: Yeh. (pause) And it's comments like those that make me glad I go there in my blog.
JS: I remember talking to you on the phone once, we were discussing a porn star who was falling for Andy Kirra and you said to me that you hoped you never got to that point where people are looking at you like you're obsessed with him and you're never going to get him. Do you feel like you reached that point or crossed that line?
AB: No. I don't think it's gotten to a point where people are worried about Andy because I have feelings for him.
JS: You don't think people have thought that?
AB: (backs up, extra long pause) Well... if people do, I don't know how misinformed that is. I've never wanted anything except for his success.
JS: Except when you are writing about him being a drunken mess which isn't very good for his career.
AB: It bothers me that Brandon Baker can write that Andy Kirra is a drunk until the cows come home but when I --
JS: Brandon Baker isn't professing he would never do anything to harm Andy Kirra.
AB: If for whatever reason that entry harmed him, it was not my intention.
JS: It's not the intention or the conclusion. It's more the hypocrisy of the statement.
AB: But what bothers me is that the idea of him getting drunk and sleeping with me is considered so unflattering. To sleep with me.
JS: His sleeping with you wasn't unflattering. It was the drunken falling down in front of a bus that --
AB: Well, it was a truck. It wasn't a bus. And that happens to everybody.
JS: Oh, everyone falls down in front of a truck.
AB: Well, who was supposed to be filling in on the show today?
AB: And how many people do you know who that has happened to? Andy wasn't even thrown out of a club, he just tripped and fell in front of a truck.
JS: Okay now you might want to go back and clarify something.
AB: What?
JS: You said you slept with Andy.
AB: We did. We slept together.
JS: Right, but you might want to clarify what that means to you.
AB: We slept in bed together. Naked. Nothing happened. We kissed goodnight. It was one of the greatest night of my life.
In the second hour, when it became my turn to get grilled, Angel decided he wanted to first go down the list of all my past relationships, naming them off one by one beginning with Christian Owen.
JS: Christian Owen was barely a relationship. We met outside Micky's one night. I had interviewed him over the phone once prior to that. And then I saw him outside and it was a moment where we saw each other and felt a little something.
AB: And then went home and had wild sex?
JS: No, it was literally a two minute meeting.
AB: How did you start dating?
JS: I don't remember. I was dating two other people at the time. More than dating. Seeing. And they all knew. I was 21 and had reached the conclusion that I didn't want to be in a relationship. I wanted to be a kid and have a childhood I felt I was never given the opportunity to have and make mistakes and fall on my ass and put myself before anyone else and be selfish and have wild random sex with strangers. I was dating a swimmer at USC named Jason and one of the sweetest men I've ever dated named Scott and then Christian.
AB: Do you think it is the right of the young to be selfish?
JS: It's the right of everyone to be selfish, I guess. Not just the young. There are consequences to it, I think, having lived through it. But if that's what you want your legacy to be, go for it I guess. If that's what you want to contribute to the world. I don't think I knew it was selfish at the time though either. Looking back I can see it as an indulgent time in my life.
AB: How long were you and Christian together?
JS: Two months? Maybe three.
AB: How did it disolve?
JS: Everyone knows this story. It's been written about on my site.
AB: Well, tell the newer readers who might not read the archives.
JS: Fine. We were having an argument over instant messenger where we were arguing over just about anything. I would say black and he would say white and he was kind of goading me to catch me in something by saying I could never host a show like Cocktails with the Stars, that I wasn't that talented. And I immediately fired back with how much more talented I was than the host at the time, Will Clark, and that I could get a show like that easily and made up a lie that I had been to RAGErecently and they had asked me to do a show there. He promptly copy and pasted all of that to Will Clark.
AB: Was that a lie about RAGE or just prophecy?
JS: Prophecy I guess! I did end up having a short-lived show there. Would have been longer lived but they didn't want to pay for more promotion and I didn't want to devote a day a week to something for such little pay. Being a producer and host of that show was taking up a whole day of my week and I couldn't afford that.
AB: So he left the industry for a while shortly after all that happened?
JS: Yeah. It was before I started really pissing people off and not caring about it. I wanted everyoen to like me back then and everyone really thought of me as their little brother or son and they all had my back.
JS: Oh God, I forgot about him! I don't really like talking about my personal life anymore. If you'll notice, I never talk about it in my Diary now.
AB: Tough shit. It's my turn now. Jason McCain. You don't normally bottom, do you?
JS: Not very often, no. Only a few times in my life.
AB: What about Jason McCain made you want to bend over and take it like a bitch?
JS: I don't know.
AB: Did he smack you around like you do to everyone else? Were you drunk? What?
JS: No, I think it's because the first guy I fell in love with and messed around with was straight. I mean, if you really want to get into realtionships, there's the one to get into. That whole young love thing, first love, is very heady and people always remember it. I got into something that was way over my head at a very early age. We were 16 or 17. I fell in love for the first time with a straight guy and set out to make him love me by making him fall in love with my best girlfriend who was plotting with me to get me what I wanted so we could have this threesome relationship. It was a really tangled web. It was a huge deal in my life and it affected probably everything I've done and continue to do to this day as far as decisions I've made and paths I've taken. It was hard getting over the challenge to be able to do anything together sexually and then once we did, I distinctly remember him walking into my bedroom one day and just falling onto the floor almost like he had fainted. And he got up and was crying. And he said, "Why do you make do things I don't want to do and why do you make me like it?" And I told him I was so sorry and that all I wanted was to love him. And he said he never wanted to see me again. And I never saw him again. And I knew shortly after that, I had to leave Florida as soon as I graduated because everywhere I went, I thought about him.
AB: You had fooled around with other straight guys between him and Jason McCain though, right?
JS: Sure, but Jason gave me the opportunity to have it not be so corrupt. Not to have to convince a straight guy to like me, but to have him come to me and say, "I want you to be my first experience."
AB: You were his first time with a guy?
JS: Yeh.
AB: Before shooting gay porn?!
JS: Yeh!
AB: Oh wow. So you could do it without feeling dirty.
JS: More than that, it was very healing.
AB: Did you ever look at Jason McCain romantically or was it purely sexual?
JS: (pause) A little romantic sometimes. There was a time that... (pauses) Yeh, there were times.
AB: Was it devastating to know that it wasn't going to work out?
JS: No because at the time I wasn't looking for a relationship.
AB: Now, I remember you having a thing with Mac Turner too. The straight boy thing seems to be a pattern for sure.
JS: What do you thnk it all means? It's interesting you would even bring this up because I haven't thought about that first guy in a long time and I haven't been able to stop thinking about him the last couple of weeks.
AB: Well, you definitely take it to the next level. I remember being at porn star karaeoke where you and Lisa Sparxxx took some straight guy to the bathroom and started banging the hell out of him.
JS: I had made a promise to myself when I came to Los Angeles that I was not going to fuck with anyone's head like that ever again. I realized what power we have as human beings at a really young age and it scared me. But I found it didn't matter. I didn't have to corrupt or go after straight guys. They seemed to gravitate towards me. And still do. There's moments I'm grateful for it and moments I wonder if it's unhealthy that I'm attracted to this.
AB: You've had long term realtionships with gay boys though.
JS: Absolutely.
AB: Do you think you could have a long term relationship with a straight guy? Do you think it's productive to go after?
JS: Well, I don't know because then I look at someone like Jason McCain and think well if that were another time, you never know it might have worked. And it was very healthy and consensual so it's not the non-consensual part that turns me on. It's the masculinity probably. A father figure aspect.
AB: Do you think that might come across as internalized homophobia that you can't be masculine because you're gay?
JS: No. I don't feel like that at all.
AB: You can be with a butch gay guy without being with straight boys.
JS: I know. I've had long-term relationships with them.
AB: That's true. You have been. ... Let's change topics here for a minute. We will get back to your ex's if we have time. You mentioned in your site recently that there is a difference between self-promotion and self-confidence. A lot of people say you're the king of self-promotion and think you can't take a dump without issuing a press release on it. A lot of projects you've announced haven't come to fruition yet. So I wanted to give you an opportunity to go through all the projects.
JS: (laughing) Let's go down the whole list! There's a lot!
AB: Let's start with the big one. Bully was a movie you shot two years ago. It's been edited, allegedly. Bobby Williams is gone, come back, gone again, got skinny, got fat, was on drugs, is off drugs -- where is the movie?
JS: The movie is done. Been done. The only reason I've waited to sell it is because I've waited forever and a day to have someone do the behind-the-scenes reel and trailer. Believe it or not, they will up the price of your DVDs so mcuh if you have extras. It's a huge difference in pricing so I really want to make sure since we have all this extra footage, it gets on the DVD. Drew Warner was our original editor and he just had to admit after a year of having all my notes that he has been too busy to finish the project so it has been given to another editor and she is wrapping the work on it as we speak. It'll be out soon.
AB: You had people following you around with cameras as one point. A reality show pilot. What happened with that?
JS: Well, we took a meeting with here! Network about it and the other people involved as producers said they weren't offering enough money. At the time, I was bummed because I would've done it for free just for promotional purposes, but when I recently shifted gears and decided to take a different direction with my career, I thought if I want to get into mainstream acting and hosting, it might not be the smartest thing in the world to have a reality show about my life working behind the scenes of the porn industry. We have all the footage though and it will end up on JasonCurious.com someday I'm sure.
AB: How much longer do you think you will run JasonCurious.com?
JS: A year.
AB: A year?
JS: One more year.
AB: You were writing a book too with someone at one point.
JS: It's a compilation of my Diary entries on JasonCurious.com. We finished it for the most part, but since I decided I'm just doing another year of the site, we figured we might as well see the book all the way to the end and have a real ending that chronicles this amazing journey I've taken in this industry since I was 18. The ending was originally going to be me getting together with Mikey actually. Because from day one it was my adventures with my best friend and then it became me falling in love with my best friend and we thought that would be a nice ending to the story, but it turned out to not be the ending to my own story but only the beginning. And by the way, I never issued press releases on any of these things.
AB: You didn't?
JS: No, I wrote about it in my diary but that's where I write about my life and what I'm working on and doing.
AB: Did you include them in bios in your press releases? Maybe saying, "Jason is currently working on..."
JS: Sure. But it wasn't the headline of any press release. It wasn't the subject of any press releases.
AB: Symantics. I see your point though. What about the one-man show?
JS: I took your advice there. You told me once that I had so much talent and so many things going on that I didn't know where to begin and needed to prioritize. I asked you how and you said, "Well for starters maybe you should put the one-man show on the backburner until the end of your career?"
AB: Like Elaine Strich.
JS: Right. And I thought that was sound advice so I did. But I'm still working on it. The notebook still sits on my desk. I'm still working on all these things. And that's all I said was "currently working on..." I never said when anything would be finished! (laughs)
AB: But it makes people say, "Well, Jason's full of shit. Where's his TV show? Where's this? Where's that?"
JS: Really?!? I had no idea they said that.
AB: I saw you do stand up comedy at Howl at the Moon at Universal Citywalk. How is the stand-up career going?
JS: Well, I think that stand up is something that actors tend to do when nothing else is going on. When Jerry Seinfeld left his show, he went back to stand up. When Rosie O'Donnell left The View, she went back to stand up. I have been trained at The Groundlings and I think stand up is a good way to stay sharp and stay in it and I was not acting for a few months there. But then I got a lead in a musical that went up at the Out of Bounds Improv Festival in Santa Monica and now I have a regular gig singing at a night club every other week so that's this whole new thing that is taking up a lot of my time and attention. Singing is nothing I've ever been very confident about so for me it involves a lot of rehearsal.
AB: You were working on a demo tape of original music at one point.
JS: THAT SONG WAS SO GOOD! God, I love that song. We finsihed one song and I never got a chance to master it. I was writing music with this guy who was totally fucking brilliant but he was also a crack head. He was really smart and talented and he just fell off the face of the Earth, so I have ten songs left without music. Like I said, the music thing was a hobby really. It was never anything I thought anyone would actually hire me for but I smile more being in a musical, singing in a club, I'm never happier than when I'm involved somehow in the process of making music. So just to be involved in a musical this year and singing in a club every other week, it may sound like small change but from someone who came from Indiana to be doing that in a piano bar every other week in Los Angeles, California is more a of a dream come true for me than anything porn related I've accomplished.
AB: We've talked a lot about your past relationships. Let's talk about your feelings for Andy Kirra.
JS: (taken aback) Okay.
AB: You've spent a lot of time with him lately, isn't that fair to say?
JS: No, I don't think that is fair to say. I don't think hanging out with him once in the last two weeks is --
AB: That's not what you said during the commercial break. You said you've been talking to him almost every day.
JS: Online or on the phone, yeah.
AB: Symantics. That's spending time with him. I'm not asking if you're fucking him, right?
JS: (silence) ...
AB: And I'm not asking if you're dating him.
JS: (more silence) ...
AB: So how's that going?
JS: He's nice. He's a good friend.
AB: Okay. Youv'e recently been playing the dating pool and enjoying it but it took you a long time to get there. How was that going from the demise of your last relationship to finally being comfortable going out on a date again?
JS: ...How WAS that?
AB: Was there any catalyst or just time that healed the wound?
JS: Time. That's all. ... I finally stepped outside. I went through a whole year where unless I was going to the grocery store or being paid for a gig, I never left hte house. I finally started going out with friends and at a club, I'd be out for one minute and I would get asked on a date and that really helped a lot. It was like everytime I got up the courage to leave, it was a little light shining down on me that would bring me some proposal. If I just left my apartment. That's all I had to do. And everytime I did, I was given a gift and a reminder that I've still got it and that brought me out of my shell.
AB: I am an emotional eater. We have both battled issues with our weight. Are you an emotional eater?
JS: Totally. When I broke up with Jared, I ballooned to 165. Same thing when I broke up with Mikey. I mean, I hit 165 twice in the last 4 years.
AB: The worst I hit was 170. And that may not sound like a lot to some people listening, but at our height, being in Southern California that weight is unacceptable.
JS: No it's not. I disagree with that. This time, I lost the weight because I felt better and I didn't need to eat more and I wanted to go to the gym because it made me feel good. The idea of looking better for myself or someone else, the idea of looking better, wasn't a factor this time and I am now at 148. But 165 is not unacceptable. I had to get to where I was loving where I was in the moment. The demise of that relationship helped me to get over harping on my own imperfections.
AB: That was your longest relationship. Do you think you'll ever get back together with Mikey?
JS: No. (laughs) I pictured it as you said it and it was little terrifying actually. I miss him, but I think it was a relationship based out of fear. I think I fell in love with my best friend because I thought my best friend would never hurt me. I was playing it safe. I was playing it safe in every aspect of my life then. My career too. I decided it all had to end.
AB: So it was more the principle of who he was than the person he was you fell in love with?
JS: Yeh, we were never really very good friends to each other either so it forced me to redefine friendship which was really important in my own personal growth. We were very competitive and not very supportive. The whole world seemed to be changing at the time. The war going on. Lot of change. I felt like it was all just a big wake up call.
AB: Do you feel like some people use external problems like the war, homelessness, to divert themselves from their own internal problems?
JS: I suppose? Some people may?
AB: Maybe some people should start with themselves before making the world a better place.
JS: I think you have to tie the two together. The war on terror begins in your backyard. The personal is the political. I think you have to realize that we have elected an administration that fights fire with fire because we do it in our every day lives. When someone cuts us off in traffic, we give them the middle finger. When someone yells at us on the phone, we yell louder. We yell louder. In American society, that's what we do. We yell louder and I think you can be concerned with both. I don't think it's a diversion at all.
AB: But do you think it's possible to be Mr. Greenpeace and have a shitty home life because you're not paying enough attention to them?
JS: (confused) I guess... that's possible, sure Angel.
AB: Okay. Just saying. Not everything is black and white.
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